And i dont mean looking at delicious foods and what not. I had a dream where sex and food were involved.
Now i love my body and I love performing. But I am so proud to say that I am now 325 pounds! OMG! There are 2 reasons I am trying to lose weight. 1, to stay healthy and 2, so I can remain performing. If you’ve never seen me perform, I move! I dance and jump and do the spilts. I’m addicted to performing. (It’s also why I’m getting fit lol)
Why why why do I want something I can never have? It sucks
I feel like i want to beat things. Im in a crappy ass mood. arrrrgggggg! maybe i need weed. or a beer.
It’s nights like this where I feel the loneliest. And now even more so because I live with a couple. They are very cute. I’m love sick. Not for someone but for love. I don’t like sleeping alone all the time. I miss cuddling and holding hands. Last week I was out with friends after an event. We went and had some drinks at the Eagle’s lodge where they were doing Karaoke. Someone was singing this old love song and some of the older folks, husband and wives got up and started slow dancing, it just made the love sickness hurt even more.
I miss slow dancing. I think the last time was at a friends wedding in December.
I miss love.